“You know that feeling? That feeling when you just want the right thing to fall into the right place, not only because it’s right, but because it will mean that such a thing is still possible? I want to believe that.”—Nick & Norah’s Infinite Playlist (via eletheowl)
Today while at the gas station, a man walked out with a shirt on that said “Who Needs Drugs?” on the front. Expecting something religious to be on the back, he turns around and I see that the back said “No seriously, I have drugs.” My 50 year old mom laughed harder than I did. MLIA.
She`s the one you call when you`re bored because she makes you laugh. She`s the one you talk to when you`re feeling down because she`s willing to lend an ear and be a friend. She`s not the one you call when you need a date to your company`s Christmas party, or to go dancing with on a Saturday night. She`s the one you spend time with between girlfriends, before you find `The One`. You know, the one you keep in the MEANTIME.
She`s not one of the guys, not a tomboy, but you don`t look at her as a “real” woman, either. She`s not bitchy enough, moody enough, or sexy enough to be seen in the light. She`s too laid-back, too easily amused by the same things your male buddies are amused by. She`s too understanding, too comfortable. Doesn`t make you feel nervous or excited the way a `real` woman does. But she`s cool, nice and funny, and attractive enough that when you`re lonely and need intimate female companionship, she`ll do just fine.
You don`t have to wine and dine her because she knows the real you already, and you don`t have any facades to keep up, no pretense to preserve. You`re not trying to get anything of substance out of her. She`s not easy, but you know that she cares about you and is attracted to you. And you know that you don`t have to explain yourself or the situation, that she`ll be able to cope with the fact that this isn`t the beginning of a relationship or that there`s any possiblity that you have any real romantic feelings for her.
It won`t bother her that you`ll get up in the morning, put on your pants, say goodbye, and go on a date with the woman you`ve been mooning over for weeks who finally agreed to go out with you. She`ll settle for a goodbye hug and a promise to call her and tell her how the date went. She`s just so cool.. why can`t all women be like that?!
But deep down, if you really think about it (which you probably don`t.. because to you, the situation between the two of you isn`t important enough to merit any real thought) you know that it`s really not fair.
You know that although she would never say it, it hurts her to know that despite all her good points and all the fun you two have, you don`t think she`s good enough to spend any real time with. Sure, it`smostly her fault, because she doesn`t have to give in to your needs - she could really play hard-to-get. Bitch like the rest of them do, if she really wanted to. But you and she both know that she probably couldn`t pull it off. Maybe she`s too short, or a little overweight, or has big birthmark on her forehead, or works at Taco Bell, or just really not that type.
Whatever the reason, somehow life has given her a lot of really great qualities but has left out the ones that men want (or think they want) in a woman. So she remains forever the funny friend, the steadfast companion, the secret lover, and you go on searching for your goddess who will somehow be everything you ever wanted in a woman.
You`ll joke to her that she should be the best man at your wedding, and she`ll laugh and make a joke about a smelly rental tux.
She doesn`t captivate you with her beauty, or open doors with her smile.
Mainly, she blends in with the crowd. She`s safe. She doesn`t want to be the center of attention and turn the heads of everyone in the room. But she wants to turn someone`s head. She wants to be SPECIAL to someone, too. We all do.
She has feelings. She has heart. In fact, she probably has a bigger heart than any woman you`ve ever known because she`s had a front-row seat to The Mess That Is Your Life, and she likes you anyway.
She obviously sees something worthwhile and redeeming in you because although you`ve given her nothing, absolutely no reason to still be around, she is.
I remember this :3
OH MY GOD. IT’S LIKE WRITTEN ESPECIALLY FOR ME. ON THE VERY DAY I’VE BEEN CRYING LIKE A COMPLETE DUMBASS BECAUSE OF EVERYTHING THAT HAS BEEN WRITTEN HERE. I never completely understood why I was crying the whole day, but THIS IS EXACTLY IT.
“You can’t blame me for trying. I’ve gone through seasons waiting for you with nothing changing but the weather. And I want to say that I’m okay being alone, and I want to show you I’m okay being alone, but even if I said it, I wouldn’t mean it. To be quite honest, the only thing getting me through these days is the false hope that things are going to be okay, that they’re going to get better. But without you, I’m never okay because you’re the only thing that makes me better.”—(via eletheowl)
I am a cuddler I am a morning person (Did you know that Descartes died because he was made to get up in the morning? This is why 11 am is the earliest one should wake up. That, by the way, was really my only reason for “blogging” this note.) I am a perfectionist I am a night person I am an only child I am Catholic I am currently in my pajamas I am currently suffering from a broken heart I am okay at styling other people’s hair I am left handed I am addicted to my myspace I am very shy around the opposite gender I bite my nails I can be paranoid at times I currently regret something that I have said When I get mad I curse frequently I like someone I enjoy jazz music I enjoy smoothies I enjoy talking on the phone I have a pet (had) I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal I have a tendency to fall for the wrong person I have all my grandparents I have at least one sibling I have been told that I am smart I have broken a bone I have Caller I.D. on my phone I have bathed/showered with someone(when I was like, a tiny little Norwegian toddler, yes) I have changed a diaper I have changed a lot over the past year I have done something illegal I have friends who have never seen my natural hair I have had surgery (does a root canal count here?) I have killed another person I have had my hair cut within the last week I have had the cops called on me I have kissed someone I knew I shouldn’t I have held hands with someone who wasn’t my boyfriend/girlfriend (when I was single) (not like that) I have loved someone
Graduated High School. Kissed someone. Smoked cigarettes. Got so drunk you passed out. Rode every ride at an amusement park. Collected something really stupid. Gone to a rock concert. Helped someone. Gone fishing. Watched four movies in one night. Gone long periods of time with out sleep. Lied to someone. Been dumped. Snorted cocaine. Failed a class. Smoked weed. Dealt drugs. Taken a college level course. Been in a car accident. Been in a tornado. Done hard drugs (i.e. ecstasy, heroin, crack, meth, acid). Watched someone die. Been to a funeral. Burned yourself. Ran a marathon. Your parents got divorced. Cried yourself to sleep. Spent over $200 in one day. Flown on a plane. Cheated on someone. Been cheated on. Written a 10 page letter. Gone skiing. Been sailing. Cut yourself. Had a best friend. Lost someone you loved. Shoplifted something. Been to jail. Had detention. Skipped school. Got in trouble for something you didn’t do. Stolen books from the library. Gone to a different country. Dropped out of school. Been in a mental hospital. Watched the “Harry Potter” movies. Had an online diary. Fired a gun. Gambled in a casino. Had a yard sale. And a lemonade stand. Actually made money at the lemonade stand. Been in a school play. Been fired from a job. Taken a lie detector test. Swam with dolphins. Gone to sea world. Attempted suicide. Voted for American/Australian Idol. Written poetry. Read more than 20 books a year. Gone to Europe. Loved someone you couldn’t have. Wondered about your sexuality. Used a coloring book over age 12. Had surgery. Had stitches. Taken a taxi. Seen the Washington Monument. Had more than 5 IM’s/online conversations going at once. Overdosed. Had a drug or alcohol problem. Been in a fist fight. Suffered any form of abuse. Had a hamster. Petted a wild animal. Used a credit card. Gone surfing in California. Did “spirit day” at school. Dyed your hair. Got a tattoo. Had something pierced. Got straight A’s. Been on the Honor Roll. Known someone with HIV or AIDS. Taken pictures with a webcam. Started a fire. Had a party while your parents weren’t home. Gotten caught having a party while they were gone.